He is quite a noisy guy yang takboleh duduk diam naughty and yang paling penting not cover-macho type. And thats what caught my eyes. Dont get me wrong. I dont have crush on him. I swear on that thing wallahi.
Its just when i saw him , i came to see me in himself. Being very easygoing, cheerful , happy , main-main , always put on my laughing mask and not the serious type sampai once, ada kawan ask me 'aku ni bila je entah boleh serius.' So when i knew from someone that he didnt perform well in our previous exam, I felt bad. It is hurtful to see he laughs and jokes around when actually he is holding something awful inside. I dont know if iam too emotional but I nearly cry kot when i think about someone like that. (not just him)
I know how excruciating it is to hide your teary heart and by looking at him did it so well , i have no words to describe my awe.
Sampai lah this one day, i dont know from where he got that 'jerkness' (i have no intention to write abt it). It is such an eye opener! Maybe Allah want to show me that I learnt a wrong lesson all this time. Maybe we dont need to pull on that kind of mask pun actually in life. Maybe he is not hurting inside pun actually macam aku fikir. Maybe he has problem on that day so that his jerkness uncover kan.
I know i have no right to judge. Be it everyone. But what to do. Human judge. It is just whether you say it out or not. And not saying it out, may make people have a better judgement on you.
I have no grudge against him. It is just a little bit heart-peeling , how could i always want my eyes to just see the positivity in people at my first encounter and realising it isnt later.
Be true to what youre feeling right now. Do what you feel you want to do now. The chance wont come twice.
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