21

Last 20 Sept, I turned 21 - the oldest age I've been in since 1994 alhamdulillah. Came up with an idea to write a letter to a finally-21-years-old-me . A virtual one since diary didnt fly to Malaysia along. 

Syahmi planned to throw me a birthday surprise. He is the cheekiest brother but a sweet one I can say. Me and my girl siblings never really say I love you in words . We showed them with act . Haha. But my two youngest brother really can pull it off very well. They can confess I love you , I miss you so easy that I'm afraid they gna grow up being playboys later. 

So that day, I spent my day sleeping since it was among my last days of freedom. I'm abt to fly two days away. I heard they waited for me about three hours before I went downstairs till the pizza has turned cold that they need to re heat it again in microwave afterwards and all the ices has melted too. Syahmi bought a piece of cake and some pizza , decorated our house with some balloons as well. Counting that he went through all the hot weather cycling, came back all smelly and sweaty, I hardly decided to become slightly generous when it comes to birthday present. I asked him for a novel which price estimated to be RM 40 at least. He recoiled at the idea but then promised me he'll try to save up to reach that amount haha. I'm such a bully sister. 

I think that was one of the reason Allah made my mum had me in September. Most of my summer break ( so far) is in September. While others celebrating it "there", I can have a blast to made the day with my beloved family. Hehe

And I see old people tend to made a lot of resolutions as they age. I knew nothing about this kind of formal promise to yourself of being a better person whatsoevs. One thing I'm sure about, not only a sui generis is worth to be remembered. An insipid prose of what it means to be a normal 21-years-old-girl is just fine (for me at least). 

As for my first resolution (birthday resolution?) I wish to pal up with myself more, so that I know the best trick to foil my innerself enemies ; low self esteem. I'm such an easy going girl kan. 

Whatever befalls, make the best of it, girl! You got yourself after all. Thanks for every warm wishes and enjoy dwelling in my life comfortably ! May Allah bless us dunya akhirah.