So why out of blue abt this anti social. Siapa sebenarnya yang anti social. Yes aku one of them. Kot. Where whenever my friend just left me by myself in a crowd, (despite ppl tht i knew their name but im not so close) there it struck. Feeling like you are naked. Normal human being call it awkward.
So what you did when it happens? Option one, avoid to get near to any place which is predictable you gna feel that isolated feeling . Option two, try to mingle. I rarely prefer option 1, by having a mindset people we met are meant to be a lesson. And yes alhamdulilah i got myself some sort of good communication skills (excluding my uncontrollable hand slap). And most of those so called awkwardness, i overcame it. Which then i can proudly said , Im not an anti social.
Unfortunately, lately this tak-nak-layan-orang-langsung syndrome macam get severe. It s not like you malas bercakap or find anyone just plainly annoying but it like one-sided-friendship. Does such thing even exist ? Pardon the emotional stuff.
Yes when you involved in an activity which i mean, participating bidirectionally in term of humans interaction (sports day , parties ,travelling, study groups or even just a mere hi by the bus stop ), are that relationship just meant to be there.
Not saying im being detailed in everyone I met by glance or such. But also, not denying I did appreciate even a simple smile. Yet, im not too murah-senyuman person. Keadaan dimana bila kau pernah satu group or kerja samasama main sama sama (if even it is one day) , yang mana when esoknya or maybe a week after kau jumpa si A nie and she/he dont even senyum bila jumpa. Persuading myself, dia rabun kot. Takpelah.
Sekali okay masuk tiga empat kali, sorry makan kari . Sedih sungguh tak terkata ah bila kita ingat nama dia, at least ingat muka dia tapi dia jumpa kita dekat 5centimeter pun muka ketat. Takpe takpe dia tengah ada masalah tu, takpayah emo sangat k awak.
Yallah bai ,esok exam. Doakan skor 80.
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